"When I write, I don't hold myself back one iota. I write as if He would never read it. Because He doesn't. I condense every single secret thought, observation, everything I have stored inside me into a letter. When I write it, I seal it, address it, and then I put it in the peacock blue hat box.
These are not really love letters. They are written when I don't want to be in love anymore. Farewell letters. Because after I've written them, I'm no longer tormented by all-consuming love. From then on, I can eat my cereal in the morning without thinking about whether he also likes Cheerios with bananas. I sing love songs without singing them to Him. If love is like obsession, my letters are like exorcisms. They set me free. At least that would be their job."